Dr. Appt

I was not looking forward to my appt this morning, but as soon as I realized that I got my own screen to watch the entire ultrasound it was completely worth it! It was so fun to see Nixon's cute little nose and hands and feet and boy parts (yes, it's still a boy!) Everything looked great and when I took the report down to the office I was told that his measurements were putting him at 4000 grams. 4000 grams? What the heck does that mean... oh, after converting it, just a measly 8.5 pounds... I guess we will see how right it is! Anyway, the doc stripped my membranes... lovely... just lovely... and since then I have had contractions for a few hours now. The only problem is that they aren't consistent or really close together (average of about 10 minutes, but they keep changing). I guess we will wait and see. Dr. Martyn seemed really optimistic about this working for me because I am already at a 3 and almost fully effaced. The last thing he said was, "I hope I see you tomorrow morning with a healthy little guy!" Let's go Nix!

*PS... shaw shaw... Meri and Molly are coming with my parents!

Day 4

Yes, it is day 4 of being overdue. Yes, we are sick of waiting. Yes, my mom, dad, sister, and neice get here tomorrow. (YAY!!!) Yes, my doctor told me last week that he wouldn't induce me until April 6th...

BUT, today is a new day. Ultrasound and Dr. Appt in an hour- maybe he will change his mind. :) I will hope. Enjoy your day- can't believe it is it the last day of March- wow!

Several weeks ago...

I was fine with waiting.... I kept saying that I wanted this baby to come March 31st... that was until I already had a trip to the hospital and got all excited and now am plagued by continuous, but irregular contractions that just go on and on and on and I WANT THIS BABY OUT!

I have tried pretty much all the dumb wives tales EXCEPT castor oil and I am considering it, BUT then I think, maybe I should just order up some yummy glutenous food that will pretty much have the same effect... hmm, pizza hut pizza... kraft dinner... fresh donuts from safeway... mouth is watering...

False Alarm... but today might be the day

We had a bit of a false alarm Thursday night. Ended up at the hospital at 4:00 AM with lots of contractions- dialated to a 3, but after walking around for 3 hours trying to get things moving along better, we were sent home. We were ok with that- it is pretty boring walking around and possibly one of the most annoying girls ever was being admitted... pass on being her room mate. :) Things slowed WAY down pretty much all day yesterday, kind of picked up at 4:30 this morning, but are starting to die down again. :( We walked around all last night so that is the plan for today. THIS BABY NEEDS TO COME. IT'S YOUR DUE DAY NIXON BOY!!!!

PS... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY BROTHER STAKE- love you lots- I can't believe you are 19

and congrats to Meri, Shane, and Molly on their special day at the temple being sealed together forever. It's a good day... now come on Nixon!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAKON!!!

I can't believe my little buddy boy is 3 years old! His birthday was last monday (the 15th), but we decided to celebrate it the Saturday before so we would have more time to play all day! The morning started out with us at Chuck E. Cheese. Grandma, Papa, Bret, Jenn and Justin came to play with us for a bit. Deakon had an ok time... unfortunately, he was kind of in between the 2 areas. The "baby" rides were too boring for him and the "big kid" games were too challenging. They do have a little play area (like at McDonalds) which I know he would love, but he is still not quite tall enough to climb up at the beginning so if there isn't another kid to help him out, he gets frustrated and climbs back down. He tried to beg me to come up with him (which I totally have done at McDonalds... hey, it was just us and I promised him he could play. McDonald's probably thought I was a crazy person and would break the thing, but we made it out with no broken slides :) ha) Anywho, it turned out fine because Deakon didn't have any complaints on our way out. After playing, we went and met Ron and Doreen for lunch at Chili's and then headed to the mall to window shop and buy some batteries for Deakon's new toys before heading back to Cochrane for nap time.

Kyle, Bret, and Justin playing skee ball:
Bret and Deakon jet skiing:
Playing some b-ball:

Justin, Deakon, and Kyle:

Opening up Jenn and Justin's present... he calls this his "jack box" It cracks me up:

Later that night we had plans to go 5 pin bowling with Ron and Doreen and Bret and Eva. We have been trying to go as a fam since January so it the birthday was a perfect excuse. We honestly didn't think Deakon would care too much... we were wrong. HE HAD SO MUCH FUN! We should have ditched the dumb Chuck E. Cheese idea and gone bowling for hours. He was a bit impatient waiting for everyone to take their turns, but he loved it and was sad to leave.

Playing games while waiting for everyone to show up:

Ron, Bret, Eva, and Doreen:

Kyle trying to get a turn in. They only let 6 people per lane so Deakon took most of our turns. It's a good thing you get 3 balls per turn. :)

Jumping high fives... so funny:

Attempt at a family pic... you know how those go:

Bret and Deakon:

Sunday was a big day as well. Because Bret's birthday is the 17th, he and Deakon had a joint birthday dinner. Everytime, I would ask Deakon what kind of cake he wanted, he would ALWAYS tell me chocolate (which I put in his head...) with "lots of sprinkles like a donut" I let him pick out 2 different kinds of sprinkles and on Sunday when he woke up from his nap, he and Kyle went to town decorating while I tried to keep up frosting. He was so darn proud of his sprinkles. I actually made a chocolate cake the week before so I talked him into have white cupcakes with lemon frosting (so good if I say so myself- I have a really good GF cupcake recipe)

Singing Happy Birthday to Bret and Deakon:

Blowing out the candles:

Opening gifts- love these shoes that Kyle picked up for him. Deak calls them his bowling shoes. :)

Kari, John, Jenn, and Justin celebrated with us:

Opening more gifts:

Mommy and Deakon:

Testing out his painting and tool gear. He got a ton of tools which he is so into right now. He hasn't stopped fixing everything in the last few weeks:

Bret and Eva got him the cutest tool bench... and that spiderman "necklace" hanging from his neck in the picture above:

Happy Birthday Deakon! Hope you had a fabulous weekend and we love you so much!

39 weeks... 4 days...

No... I don't have anything exciting to announce. Just got back from my appt. and not much is happening. At the end, he gave me a happy little grin (that kind of made me want to slap him... just kidding) and told me he would see me next week. I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week if this humongous baby is still holding on for dear life. He hasn't dropped yet so he is still trying to break my ribs with his constant kicking. The last 3 weeks my doctor has loved telling me that this is "definitely a big baby" at least compared to Deakon's 6 lbs. 10 oz. He is guessing Nixon will be no less than 8 lbs. Lucky me, right????? Bah... anyway, the baby clothes are clean, the bed is up, the rooms are cleans, all we really need are some diapers- yes, I keep putting it off- THEY ARE SO EXPENSIVE compared to Utah prices, hate it. Guess it is time to take some walks and relax and make this baby come out!

Any forcing-baby-into-labor advice will be appreciated for this weekend!!!

Weekend in Banff!!! *update!*

I was completely frustrated yesterday with our new laptop not working... and then I realized that I am kind of retarded. I kept pushing the "add image" button and the usual window that pops up wouldn't come up. After wasting like 15 minutes and Deakon waking up, I exited out and saw that the dumb "image" window was just behind the main one. DUH!

Anywho, a few weeks ago, we were invited by Jenn and Justin to Banff for the weekend. They know somebody who has a 2 bedroom/2 bath condo that let us "rent" it out for a few nights. We met up and headed in after work on Friday. After getting our things settled we headed to downtown Banff to buy some food for the weekend and check out the scene. We then headed back, put Deak to bed, and did some relaxing. Saturday we woke up and cooked a nice big breakfast before heading downtown to do a little car tour of Banff. We headed down past the big golf course and took some pics and went on a little hike. Afterwards, we went and parked so we could do some shopping. We had no plans to buy anything and it was fun to window shop. The weather was fabulous and Deakon was kind of patient being pushed around. We headed back (we were so close to downtown, 5 minute drive) for Deakon's nap and hung out. The boys went and got a work out in and then we headed back to eat at "The Spaghetti Factory." It is so nice to go somewhere that caters to gluten free, WITH a dish that I seriously love: Mizithra Cheese and Brown Butter... ooo, my mouth is watering right now. Lame, right? After dinner, we hit another few places before heading back for the night. I had promised Deakon that we could go swimming so we changed into our suits and headed over to the pool and hot tub. The pool was ABSOLUTELY FREEZING so Deakon and I had fun dangling our feet in the hot tub (ok, Deakon was not very good and just keeping his feet in... naughty). Kyle actually was brave enough to jump into the pool and Deakon actually went with him and had few complaints, but I just couldn't handle seeing his purple lips and shaking body so they didn't stay very long. We headed back to the condo, put Deakon to bed, and watched a movie before heading to bed. In the morning, we packed up our stuff and went our separate ways. Kyle and I wanted to drive around and check out more of the gorgeous scenery before going back to Cochrane. It was such a fun weekend. It is so nice to get out and do something that we wouldn't normally do. Kyle kept saying to me on the way home "I had such a good time with you this weekend." It was great. The only complaint I have is that we only took pictures for the first hour and then completely forgot about it.

Kyle, Deakon, and Justin- when the snow is melted, this is a great spot for pics. I actually have one of Kyle and I the week before we got married standing here. My mom, dad, sister Debbie, and brother Stake came up for the Open House here and we did a day in Banff.

Us:
I just love the HUGE mountain in the background:

All the white snow/ice in the background is usually water and it was kind of funny to see all of the people walking on it: Better pic, the rocks on the right are the edge of the water during the summer:

Jenn and Justin- the castle hotel in the background (I can't remember the real name, but it looks like a castle)

Us:

Oh course, Kyle and Justin found something interesting to do during our little hike:

Sliding down the ice:

Shopping on the main street: Taking a break. Deakon was having a blast saying "hi" to everyone that came by:

Deakon and mom... wish we could have had a smile, but whatever:

Posing with the big bear at the fudge shop:

First real date...

I actually got on here to document our AMAZING weekend in Banff, but got a little distracted looking at old pics. My mom sent me a bunch of pictures last year that I had to use for my immigration stuff. Here are 2 pictures from the weekend that Kyle and I met in August 2005. Kyle drove down early (he didn't have to be to school in Idaho until the last week of August) from Alberta with his parents on Thursday (August 18th) to attend one of his best friend's weddings the next day. We weren't planning on meeting up until Saturday (we had been talking for about 3 1/2 weeks online and on the phone), but he saw the sign for Sandy on I-15 and quickly got off and called and made me come and meet him at the Sinclair on 90th. Don't worry, my mom made me take my little sister... (Sarah totally could have saved me from some crazy guy from Canada, right???). We talked for a bit and then he was off to Manti for the wedding and I didn't get to really see him again until Saturday when we had our first real date planned- Skyline vs. Kahuku football game at the U of U with basically my whole family... way to jump into things. :) Anyway, here are some pics from the game.

Look forward to some fun pics from out weekend in Banff!

IT'S MARCH... crazy prego time...

*Warning... this will be a nice, LONG, hormonal, venting post so if you would like to just scroll down and see our new little toy- be my guest!*

I can't believe it is March. Kyle came home from lunch today and said, "Do you realize that we are having a baby this month... this month???" It is CRAZY. I feel like time has passed so quickly and we aren't ready. We both have a tendency to not think about things until the last minute and then run around like chickens. I guess it is time to start running! Last month, we cleaned out the storage room so I took out all of the boxes with baby clothes up to 6 months and stuffed them into Deakon's closet. Ya, the boxes... with all of these clothes... none of them freshly cleaned and ready in drawers. Oh, and we don't even have a sleeping arrangement for our little one yet. The plan was to buy Deakon a toddler bed (months ago...) so we could use the crib, but now I want something to have in our room and the crib is too big. I think we might buy a new playpen to set up next to the bed until Nix gets bigger. Poor Deakon has been so excited to pick out a new bed so we might just have to plan a trip into Calgary before his birthday and buy one anyway. Ya, my little Deakon will be 3 years old in 2 weeks. Talk about time going by fast. I was just telling a friend today that I am nervous because I haven't had a real "baby" for 2 years and haven't changed a diaper in over 6 months. Things are going to change around here real fast. There are some definite pros and cons to waiting 3 years between kids. It's nice that Deakon can feed himself, walk around everywhere, and help out with almost everything. Most of my cons are just explaining that a real baby is going to come live with us, the new baby can't play hockey quite yet, the baby probably won't be using a bottle (confused look, followed by a hundred why's, followed by "I feed Molly, 'member that? I will help"), and just thinking about how neglected he will probably feel in the first few weeks. I guess that means that we will have to plan some really fun Daddy- Deakon outings.

Ok, anyway, I feel like I haven't really been documenting much of this pregnancy. It has been harder and easier than with Deakon. The hardest part is not being able to eat what I want when I feel like it. I know that seriously sounds so dumb... really really dumb (like what a super fat person would say) but in the first 4 months I could hardly eat anything. I couldn't choke down ANY meat and every gluten free bread/baked item I made or bought had this terrible after-taste that made a nauseous. For weeks I lived on 100% orange and apple juice and fruit. It really really sucked. Even now, I feel hungry all the time, but I still have such a hard time convincing myself that things will taste good- especially chicken. Things have been easier because I have known what to expect in the way of being tired and knowing how hard I can push myself each month. Knowing that these feelings of being huge and uncomfortable and peeing every 30 minutes WILL go away is nice to think about.

I haven't really said much about my appointments because they are really kind of disappointing. I hate that in Canada they make you see your family doctor for most of the pregnancy. Usually until like 24 weeks, but it my case, I put off finding a doctor until 16 weeks so I haven't even met my OB yet because most of them were filled up until now!!! I actually meet him tomorrow... ya, with 25 days left to go. I miss the special treatment I got the whole time with my OB in Utah... but I guess I deserve special treatment when we were playing 5 grand a year for insurance. :-o I don't miss that so much. So, from the mouth of my family doctor, "Everything is looking normal and good." Wow, thanks for the info. Maybe tomorrow I will have some real info to share.

As most of you know, I had a bit of post-partum depression with Deakon. After about 2 weeks I was a complete mess, or actually I was more like a bump on a log. All I wanted to do was stay in bed all day and cry- alone. I didn't want anything bad to happen to Deakon- it was more like "Hey, until I feel better, can I give this hungry, needy little thing to you???" When he had to be changed, or fed, or burped, or ANYTHING, I would just start crying. Luckily, we were living with my mom and she and Kyle got together real quick and helped me out. I talked to my doctor and went on some antidepressants for 30 days. About a week later I started feeling like myself and really started enjoying being a new mommy. After the month, I went off for a few weeks and still felt good so I didn't do much in the way of medication. I would just talk about it and make sure I asked for help if I even started to feel stressed. So, the whole point of writing all of this (besides to finally write it down somewhere) is that I have been dealing with a bit of depression this past month. Part of the last week of Jan/first week of February was probably the longest week of my life. For a few nights I just couldn't get any sleep and my days were full of terrible thoughts about how bad of a person I am. I couldn't clean, or cook, or even properly take care of Deakon (basically he was given food and cartoons- I couldn't make myself do anything else). It was like 6 days of hell. All I did was cry and cry and cry and whine and think about everything that I hated about my life. (Hence Kyle's party getting flushed down the toilet- I just couldn't deal with it and trying to make everyone happy when I really should have just tried to make Kyle happy) I went in to see my doctor and we talked about medication, but I really felt and still feel like I don't want to be on anything until this little boy comes along. He really stressed the importance of asking for help and really trying to only think of good things and just trying to accomplish 1 small thing a day that I could be happy about- even if that small thing was making the bed or actually getting dressed. After I saw him, Kyle and I had a talk and honestly just having a big day of talking helped me out a lot. I made myself relax and get some good sleep and the next day I opened all of the blinds and put on some good country tunes and started thinking positively. In the last 3 weeks, I have had some bad days, but for the most part I am feeling a lot better. Just really focusing on the positive and trying to get a bit more spiritually focused can really help.

So, enough venting for one day. I have spent an hour blogging and need to fold my laundry- laundry is the task of the day- and seriously, who can be sad when they smell clean laundry- it might be one of the best smells ever! Wish me luck at my appointment tomorrow- hopefully Dr. Martyn (really...) is not some grumpy, yucky, old man. :)

Oh... and here is some other good news. After having so many warranty issues with the Jeep, we decided to trade it in and came home with our new little 2007 Acura CSX! We absolutely love driving it, paying for gas (ok, not paying, but the fact that it gets much better gas mileage), and the back seat really is a good size for our soon to be 2 car seat family!